As my big trip gets closer and closer (t-minus 4 days now) my emotions are switching between very excited and very nervous. I have found, and this is quite terrible, that thinking about Hunter, looking at his facebook, and being reminded that he is avoiding me really makes me want to get the HELL out of here. Healthy strategy? Maybe not. But two months away will do both of us some good, I'm sure.

But on a more positive note, there is hope left in the world, and I am not completely unlovable. So far at least. I think I am very slowly beginning to like someone new. I was HELD last night. I had no idea how much my body and my soul were CRAVING that feeling. And he makes me laugh, too, which I have also missed - much more than I thought I did.

And I have to run, but my last thought is this. Why is there so much last minute crap to buy before a trip????